A Slow Jog to the Middle

In the unconscious light of early morning, Linkoln Castro, a 23-year-old whose life was currently defined by the suffocating shadow of student debt, clawed his way through the motions of his daily routine. The Florida sun, with its promise of heat and vitality, had yet to infuse the small, sleeping town with its energy, leaving the streets shrouded in a quiet, pre-dawn hush.

His home, a modest one-story structure nestled among the sprawling live oaks and swaying palms, was aging—its once bright paint faded and peeling under the relentless assault of the sun. It was in this unassuming house that Linkoln lived with his mother, Julia—a woman whose resilience and warmth was the bedrock of their family—and his sister, Kerimal, whose laughter and youthful exuberance brought fleeting moments of joy to their otherwise worry-laden lives. They didn’t always get along, nobody expected them to, but it was in the isolation of modern adulthood that their friendship was forged. 

Their house, with its creaking floorboards and the ever-present scent of Julia’s cooking, was Linkoln’s sanctuary. Within its walls, he was not an underpaid salesman burdened by debt, but a son and a brother—roles that brought him a semblance of comfort. Yet, even here, amid the remnants of childhood memories and the tangible love of his family, the weight of financial obligation was a constant presence, an uninvited guest at every meal and every quiet moment.

As he prepared for another day, the sound of the kettle whistling and the murmur of early morning conversation between his mother and sister were the soundtrack to his thoughts. He dressed in the dimness, his fingers deftly knotting the tie that felt like a noose of responsibility tightening with each passing day. The mirror reflected back a young man with ambition in his eyes dulled by the relentless cycle of work and repayment.

Linkoln had ventured out to a state university with high hopes, but those dreams had been bartered for the reality of hundreds of thousands of dollars in debt. Now, he stood before the bathroom mirror, straightening his tie, his reflection staring back at him with a mix of determination and exhaustion. Selling solar panels was his chosen battlefield, a place where he could chip away at the monolithic loan payments that consumed most of his earnings.

With a heavy sigh, Linkoln grabbed his worn-out briefcase, a thrift-store find that held his meticulously organized pitch materials and the ever-present bottle of water to combat the Florida heat. Stepping outside, he was greeted by the muffled sounds of the town stirring to life, a symphony of distant dog barks, the early chirps of morning birds, and the occasional car engine coming to life as other souls set out on their own paths of daily toil. The day awaited, and with it, the relentless pursuit of a dream that felt increasingly out of reach.

As he locked the front door behind him, the air was thick with the salt of the nearby ocean and the scent of orange blossoms. The ‘American dream’ was a concept he often pondered during his morning commute, and today was no different. To Linkoln, this dream felt like nothing more than a long jog to the middle, a relentless run on a treadmill of expectations that seemed to lead nowhere significant.

At the office, he exchanged a brief, flirtatious conversation with Amy, his co-worker. Her smile was a momentary balm to his weary spirit, but he cut the banter short. His heart, weighed down by his fiscal reality, couldn’t muster the enthusiasm for anything more.

The morning’s work was a slog of cold calls. Two calls were greeted by the impersonal hum of an answering machine, while the third ended abruptly when the caller dismissed him, their words laced with judgment for his accent.

For four more hours, Linkoln’s voice was the only thing that moved, his body static as he dialed number after number. But persistence was a trait honed by his circumstances, and it paid off with two closed deals.

Lunchtime, that sacred midday pause, offered Linkoln Castro a much-needed escape from the rhythmic cadence of rejection that filled his mornings. With a simple sandwich—a hastily made amalgamation of last night’s leftovers—in one hand, and his phone in the other, he allowed himself to sink into the faux leather chair that was his temporary throne. The office break room buzzed around him, a low din of microwaves beeping and colleagues chewing, as he swiped through the endless digital currents of Reddit and LinkedIn.

It was amidst this daily ritual of scrolling that he stumbled upon Erics’s profile. Eric, his college roommate, with whom he had shared countless dreams of success and prosperity, had seemingly pivoted from the high-stakes game of insurance sales to the niche market of window installation services. It was a sector so specific that it hadn’t even blipped on Linkoln’s radar as a possibility.

Linkoln chewed thoughtfully, the bread of his sandwich growing stale in his mouth as he pondered this unexpected revelation. Eric’s career move seemed lateral at best—was this what their future held? A perpetual side-step from one sales role to another, each with its own set of scripts, targets, and inevitable quotas? From solar panels to car warranties to medical supplies, the landscape seemed filled with interchangeable products, each promising the elusive ‘big break’ that never quite materialized.

A memory surfaced, unbidden. Linkoln was 17 again, sitting across from an admissions counselor whose job it was to sell dreams to wide-eyed high school students. The counselor, probably not much older than Linkoln was now, had painted a picture of a future so bright it was blinding—a future that Linkoln, and many like him, had bought into without hesitation.

But now, that future had dimmed. The glossy brochures had faded into the stark reality of loan statements and a job that felt more like a routine than a career. The similarity between himself and the admissions counselor was stark; both peddling hope—whether for education or energy efficiency—yet bound by the same unspoken truth: they were all just cogs in the wheel of commerce, spinning until they found their way out or simply wore down.

Linkoln’s gaze lingered on Eric’s smiling LinkedIn photo. He wondered how Eric was occupying his time during his state sanctioned lunch break. He imagined him sitting outside, eating a sandwich similar to the one he had just finished, looking down at Linkoln’s profile picture. 

Missed opportunities are a hell of a thing, he thought to himself. 

Linkoln checked his watch. It was time to make some more calls. 

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