Borrowed Personhood

Who am I?

I am built through borrowed lives.

Forced to find my soul, interests, and self in friends.

Before meeting, I felt lost.

My mind always scattered.

I am not sure who I am.

 

I steal from others like the thief I am.

Truly, who am I?

I piece myself together, always relying on others; otherwise, I am scattered.

I have lived many different lives.

Molding myself to fit, as I had no other choice, amongst so-called friends,

Without (or even with) them, I would have surely been lost.

 

If I am unsure what I am looking for, can I really be lost?

I do not care about who I am.

Solitude would have killed me, so of course I had to stick to these friends.

Seriously, who am I?

Within my head, I am there between my many lives.

The sense of self there but scattered.

 

Is my sense of self really there, if I am so scattered?

I will control my mind, I will not be lost!

Yes, yes, oh, I am there despite my many lives.

Around these people, you’ll see, I know who I am!

(Who am I?)

I am adored, chill, smart, and just like you, my friends!

 

Friends, friends, friends! I am someone because I am my friends!

I know myself even though I sound quite scattered.

(Please remind me, who am I?)

God, I just feel so lost!

But, inside, I can tell what I am.

I just need to sort through these damn lives!

 

I am so exhausted of living these silly, forced lives.

“Get away from!” I shriek at friends.

You are not who I am.

With you, I feel even more scattered/

I have a map; I promise I am not lost!

(Jesus Christ, who the hell am I?)

 

These lives fill my brain though they are often scattered.

Thank God for my friends who unknowingly guide me so I am never lost.

Here I am, smiling and pressing on because I am whoever I am. (Who am I?)

 


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