To dive in with a rope tied around my waist
Allowing my insight to be my light
Im fueled with compassion and curiosity
Frightful of what’s at the bottom I draw myself down to your cavernous truths
Hoping to sneak in like an uninvited guest
so that I couldn’t see the clean up you’ve prepped
Its farther then what I expected and the suspense seeps in with doubt
In the moments that I panic, I tug my rope
Remembering I decided to venture alone
no one will pull me up
If I truly want out I’ll have to climb up the walls
But I’m not one for retreat
The pit steeps and my oxygen starts to diminish
Almost to make sense of why my thoughts and actions are not aligned with the person I was on the surface
The depth and time to be spent is unknown
But my hopes is to find a way out from down below
And maybe then I could crawl out with the version of you that been hiding too